1st Nephi 19-20

Reading these chapters...tells me what

I already knew. The scriptures are of

great worth. They are here to help us

remember the Lord in all that we do.

They are here to help guide us back to

our Father in Heaven.

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The Lord has given us these books to

teach, guide, comfort, remind, and help

us get through our test here on this earth.

We must liken the scriptures unto our lives.

We need to rely on the Lord in all that we do,

through good times and bad. Through everyday

decisions, and life altering choices. The Lord is

there to help us, he wants us to remember him

always. To keep his commandments that we might

have peace and joy in our lives.

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"O that thou hadst hearkened to my

commandments-then had thy peace been

as a river and thy righteousness as

the waves of the sea."

"...there is no peace, saith the Lord,

unto the wicked"

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I know that much for a fact, it sounds

so wrong to say it, but I was wicked.

Wicked just seems like such a harsh word,

but I was. There was a time in my life where I

forgot the Lord....I did what I wanted

when I wanted, I was having

the time of my life. I thought I was happy,

I was on top of the World.

I was wrong!!!!!!!!!!

I see now how foolish I was!!!

I know now what

happiness is. I have this calm in my life.

I know what I want, I know where I want

to go, I know who I am and what I stand for.

I know the Lord loves me, and my heart aches

thinking of all he went through for me. That because

of those choices I made the Lord have to

suffer that much more. And not only for

my sins, but for the pain that I caused

other people....he suffered for that too.

I don't dwell on it, like I used to. But, there are times

that I really think about it and it just makes me want

to be that much better of a person. I don't

ever want to cause Christ to suffer more.

I don't want to have my family and friends

worry about me. I want to make them proud.

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Well, easier said than done....I know I will

never be perfect, but I can promise you this much,

I will live everyday of my life

striving to make the choices that will let

me spend the eternities with all of those

crazy, wonderful people that I love!!